The children have stopped crying. Now Clare's tears are touching us all.
Ten days into our journey Clare found out she was pregnant. Unplanned, (yet, as we later found, not unwanted) this threw us into a spiral of emotions, coursing a different path from the one we envisaged. For Clare being pregnant means taking part in Creation (but not as part of a belief system; she rather feels it very deeply) so termination wasn't considered. As this wasn't a viable pregnancy, Clare started bleeding last week and finally miscarried 2 days ago. Her pain and grief though still unbearable, is slowly healing.
After several clinic and hospital visits (which showed the Israeli healthcare system to be modern and efficient) I am now in Tel-Aviv with my mother who is sick with pneumonia, feeling tired and drained.
Being with one's loved ones at times of suffering is difficult; the professional skills and experience I have gained over the years don't seem to count.
7 comments:
A big hug from all of us, especially for you, Clare! You guys are not exactly having an easy start. I hope things get better from here. We'll check back soon, to see how you are. Love from Hans and his women.
Oh Clare and Shai, thought of you today and logged on to find your news. A very big hug from Ray and myself, wishing you so well. Much love, Tracy K - school is not the same without you!
Hugs & kisses Clare - may you find strength in this New Year - Jacob is missing Ella - everytime we go into shul he asks for her. We've told him that we might see her next year! We're all coming to Ra'anana in April and a visit to Zichron is very likely on the cards! By then, you'll have come through the difficult patch and all three kids will be happy and talking Ivrit! With love from Josie x x
Thoughts and love to all of you - really sad news for Clare and you, Shai. You are the most wonderful parents and I am sorry the pregnancy didn't work out. Russ and I think of you lots and enjoy reading the blog. Can you send Clare's email or your home address so I can contact her directly? Much love, Amanda
Thanks to all of you who have sent messages of support. Things are looking better now and it's good to know that people back home are sharing some of our experiences.
Clare
Dear Clare and Shai and family
Such a shock to hear what has happened and want you to know we are all thinking of you. You must be wondering what happened to that wonderful time out you were going to have.
I hope you are having some restful days.
Lots of love
Felicity
Clare Shai and family
I have just read your news and had a shock. Clare's condition must have been such an up and down for you at a vulnerable time. But you are all strong imaginative creative people and I know you will be fine. Blessings to all.
Love from Derek and Myra
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